Sorry I have no other ways to express my grievance that I am facing in my part time job. And below are the "lessons" I got from the issue raised.

It is not about sad or anything. It’s about disappointment and also MORE disappointment.

I understands that if someone is jealous on you they’ll stab you from behind but not in front. And I truly understands why she is so jealous. It is definitely because I am better than her. However, jealousy is not I desire to get in order to prove that I am good. I just want a peaceful life and being friendly to all the people around me so that I can bring happiness to all the people including my so called enemies.

I used to get through all that and I know that it is not a pleasant thing to hate or being jealous to other people. I learnt to be kind, I learnt to put down unpleasant things, I learnt to give up, I learnt to give away, I learnt to be nice, I learnt to respect people, I learnt to make friends, I learnt to the one that breaks the ice, I learnt to communicate, I learnt to be brave so that I won’t get hurt, I learnt to protect myself. I got complains, insult, hatred, jealousy, scolded, ignored, rejected and the list goes on. But I am still standing there, facing the music and never run away.

You know why? Because I truly believes that to settle the problems, we shall not run away from the reality. It is really stupid to do so because you’ll never get the answer you wanted and you feel regret for that. You may say that the answer is not important. Well, that is your problem. But, what is the point of being a coward? Be brave for once and for all, get through the darkest path in your life and your life will be a lot more easier in the future. Not to say you will not face the same thing but you will be stronger and more calm and know how to handle it even when the worst situation happens.

I used to be a coward. End up, I am being bullied, mentally and physically, mainly mentally of course. (Probably because I cares.) However, I am consider lucky to have a bunch of true friends around me and they do not give up on me no matter what happened. They support me even when I’m in the deepest hole that I ever had, they encourage me when I am down and angry, they make me happy when I am weak. Thanks to them that leads me a better life somehow.

I think I am special, in the sense that I can really feel or know what other people’s feeling. I can tell when someone meets problem and needs help, I will automatically help them when they really need help without them asking for it because I can feel the pain. I couldn’t bear to see them in vain while I am standing right in front of them. I can understand them so well because somehow I wouldn't want the same thing that happened to me applied to them again. History made a better tomorrow, that's what I believes. I don’t want to see people suffer because of the "unnecessary" situation. I hope they can be as strong as me. I hope they can continue live happily in their own ways.

But, sadly, no one really do understands me entirely.

I am looking for least a friend that can understands me but I haven't found one. I don’t blame them for that. It’s just a little disappointment. I just have the desire for it but not compulsory for me to get it because I know that sometimes things just can’t go as you wish. We meet obstacles and falls all the time, we just have to find ways to settle it efficiently and of course, use your own ways that really works on you.

Stay strong, do anything that you needed to relieve or express your dissatisfaction and stresses that you meet in life. Some suggestions, maybe you would like to sing karaoke, listen to music, play music, drawings, watch some comedy, pillow talks with buddies, cry out, walks alone, read some books, Skype or use any other social apps to express it to a total stranger if you does not want your people around you to know your weakest moments, sleep, eat, breathe, play with kids, and of course write blogs like me! J

Whatever you do, you shall not give up on yourself. You know they don’t worth your life.

Be strong enough to let go, and patient enough to wait what you deserve. 

Cheers! <3

情敌来了？男的就跟我死远一点啦。

今天没心情用英文表达我自己啦……我不知道这是为了什么在那刹那心有点痛，是不是爱上了他？没可能嘛，都已经说服我自己了，我跟他是没可能的啦，真的真的，他这有钱人又怎么会喜欢上我这个不会弄他开心的女人呢？是吧？我说得没错吧？

要怎么办呢？忘了他吧？问题是，我要怎样面对他？连做朋友的权利也美了吗？他那眼神是什么意思？其实真正爱的是我？觉得他这样做是逼不得已的？很好笑咯……哪里有这样胆小的人？想追我就说嘛干嘛躲躲藏藏的？

其实我都不用想这样多啦，人家都已经用行动证明了，他是不喜欢我的呀！我才没那么笨裁个头进去叻……爱我的人，会不理别人的流言蜚语，会帮我回击她们，会适当地安慰我，会以行动证明他是要我的，会逗我笑，见到我会特别紧张，会愿意为我付出、牺牲……他，就连基本的保护我自尊都没有，还有资格爱我吗？还有资格缝回我那失望的心情吗？

所以呀，我想保留自尊，不再对他有任何的期望了。谁赞同的请按赞！！ :D

There's something I want to share with you guys....
45 THINGS A GIRL WANT, BUT WON'T ASK FOR:

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
...4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.

24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

the drama that makes me cry the most

Hi everyone. Nice to know that you are reading my blog. Haha. I like to make friends. Recently I watched a Taiwan drama《爱上查美乐》.贺军翔 has inspired me the most, I can tell.Because of the way he treated his lover. He knows how to appreciate her. He tried to give her the best. He tried everything in the world to make her happy. He helps her up whenever she's down and never wanna let her down. Even when he's sick and a risky operation is waiting for him, he still cares her the most. He doesn't easily gave up. He doesn't care that no matter what kind of unbearable character she has, he only cares whether her heart is with him. Even though he cheated her that he has new girlfriend, she still believes that he has his own reason behind him. They understand each other the most. I'm wondering, will I get that kind of boyfriend? Or, if i wait, will it be mine?

With the plot going in the drama, they cried, I cried. Laa, I admit I'm easily get touched la><. It's also because that I can understand the pain "they" are going through. I'm lucky that I'm forgetful. Because I want to forget the past and start a new one. Can I? Honestly, I'm still a girl although sometimes I don't act like a girl. Haha. I still longed for cares, I MIND to be a starter,I still cries when I get hurt. Nobody cares.

Who wants to get hurt? No one. For those who's willing to pay everything for his/her partner are not those who willing to get hurt, but they take risks, treating you good and hope only for your attention and happiness. Of course, everyone's looking for a perfect partner. But the reality is not treating us nice, the fairy tales will NEVER exist. We must go through the pains eventually, so that we will grow, to be strong. Look, I went through all those, and its hurt, very very hurt. Why? Because each relationship is precious for me. Who knows he'll be your forever? Or maybe friends. Who knows? :P

I want a boyfriend that treat me well and is willing to sacrifice for me, although I won't purposely put him into troubles. I'm single now. I'm tired of that, I just want to wait and maybe "he" will appear? I don't know. But for sure, my true love is not yet arrive. HAHA!! 

The link below is 贺军翔's blog. You guys can refer to it as you wish :) tata~

http://artiste.tvb.com/index.php?m=guest&u=mikeha